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Thursday, November 25, 2010

feeling nostalgic ...

I don't know why, but I am. I suppose the holiday has a LOT to do with it. Melissa and I are quite used to not being able to spend holidays together (due to the jobs she has held over the years mostly), but I am a bit melancholy this day.




We held *our* Thanksgiving on Tuesday, and I was totally fine with that! It was a great day to be sure.

All day, I been a bit down. However, it's not been Melissa I been thinking about, but Mom. I haven't spent a Thanksgiving with her in the past couple decades. Sad, how life flows in that direction sometimes, but that is the course it has taken all of us.

I was fortunate enough to spend last Christmas with her. It was such a simple, but treasured, get-together and was the last time I have seen her. We have fallen out of contact, badly. It's as much my fault as hers, but for whatever reason we just have not made efforts to keep in touch.

This is a recurring theme with me. I am very poor at communicating with EVERYone-- or at least at *initiating* communication. I reply pretty well, but don't start things effectively.

This longing for Mom, whatever it is, has got me to thinking of the past, as it were. How simple life used to be. How special those days were (of course, I was a child then)!

This feeling may be perpetuated by the whole "black Friday" spend-money craze. It's nuts! Stores opening at 4 in the morning and people camping out in line to be first to trample through the store and "cash" in on deals. It's all a bit sickening.

The magic of the holidays is gone. No, this is not news to me! This time of year serves as a reminder how much has been robbed from us (the consumer) by corporate America.

So is the simplicity I remember a by-product of my youth or capitalism running rampant?  (I am sure it's a bit of both)

3 comments:

Missy said...

The Magic is NOT Gone!!! i refuse to let it die! i may be the last st nickalus at the door but i refuse to let my post! ignore the crap and focus on what is real and see only that...

as for mom, i know what you mean. i sent dad a text today. i miss my dad. i wish we were all in the same area. i guess it is a sad sorry excuse but really we just get too busy with day-to-day. You look up and 6 months have passed, leaves are changing, holidays are here and we wonder how we lost so much time.

OneFaller said...

I agree with Melissa... as long as we don't allow the the commercialism to supplant the celebration (the solstice is almost upon us!) I think we can keep those warm embers of simplicity.

it's good to reach out, man. keep doing it.

1dreamr said...

I suppose as kids we were oblivious to the day-to-day stress our parents faced; the problems were there, to be sure. But I do believe things were so much simpler. I've often said I was born 30 or 40 years too late ~ I truly yearn for simpler times...